Yesterday I watched The 4th Kind, a movie based on real-life videos of alien abduction. It was the craziest shit I have ever watched in my life, and, though I probably won't watch it ever again, it made me think. In the movie, the Sumerian language is that spoken by the "intruders" (the aliens, so to speak) and it is also the first kanguage ever to have been spoken on earth, coming before Latin, Greek, even Hyroglyphics. This can be tied to the Mayans, one of the first known civilizations, who predicted the end of the calendar on December 21st 2012. If the "Aliens" spoke Sumerian (caught on audio tape) and the first humans spoke Sumerian, now a dead language, then who's to say that the first humans weren't taught this by another force? Something ridiculously more advanced than us? Now, I was a skeptic about all of this until I saw this movie yesterday, but I can actually believe that there is something out there now, holding us like puppets. What if in 2012, they cut the cord? If that is what is going to happen, not a resurrection, or sunspots, or natural disasters, but we are literally destroyed by other beings, an all out war, resulting in our demise.

Though I may be wrong, and maybe so are the philosophers, scientists, priests, astrologists, maybe we are crazy and the world will be fine on the dawn of December 22nd 2012, and we will all wake up and live our routinely lives, we are still just wasting our time on Earth. We are doing things we don't want to do, and being who we don't want to be. We are stressing over bills, and we are marrying people we don't like, spending our lives on everyone else. There is no point in us being here. No point in the next generation or the generation after that, we are all going to die anyway, so why don't we live out our lives? Why don't we go out into the world and enjoy it? Why isn't there anarchy, instead of the government keeping us locked in a cage with a sleeping bear? Why are people paying for gas in their cars that are dying, when they could be walking, running, enjoying the world, before we or something else destroy it. It's because we are a stupid naiive, oblivious people. We have no common sense, we just do what the government tells us to do, we obey them, and then we have that drilled into our heads, that that's how we are supposed to live, then we die, and we're completely worthless. Accept it or not, we are all worthless. Has anybody found the meaning of life? I don't think there is one, except to just live it, and that's what I am planning to do. If I could quit school right now I would, just to give myself more time.

And I am wasting time on here.

Fuck it.

I really hate this country, and hate is most definitely a strong word. I am so fucking tired of the government thinking they're hot shit and keeping everything from us when they are obligated to tell us shit that goes on here. And when they do decide to tell us something, it is almost always a fucking lie. Today I learned that the recession is supposedly over, but what the fuck are we going to do now? We the people have to clean up all the bullshit that the government has left all over us.

Our unemplyment rate has skyrocketed, which means that those without jobs are screwed, those who work for government funded businesses are screwed,and those who pay taxes are screwed, because they have to pay for the 30 million people on welfare, who are already screwed and put over a fire to roast.

When I explain this to people, they always say to me "Well at least you don't live in a third world country where you have to gather your own food and boil your water and live in a little hut". Well, you know, I would actually prefer to live in that community. A society where everyone respects one another, where everyone knows what is going on, where they actually make choices based on what the people establish. Here, the government makes our choices for us, ignoring what we think or say or believe, and then who gets the consequences of their stupid, selfish actions thrown on them? We do! Our educational system is fucked up, because they took it over. Our banks are fucking up, because they took them over. Our housing market is fucked up, because they took it over. Hell, we don't even have free speech anymore, because they tap into our e-mails, our phones, virtually anything with a network and they listen to us. They listen to every fucking word we say, and if we take one step out of line, we are either interrogated to no end, or we are thrown into federal prison. We are living under a fucking dicatorship, and most of us are sadly oblivious to it, and though ignorance may be bliss, getting screwed from the behind is really fucking unpleasant.

So I say drink to corruption because they tell us it's wrong to get wasted, smoke and get high to corruption because they tell us it's wrong to do drugs, literally paint the town vivid because they tell us it's wrong to think for ourselves and be creative, fuck because they tell us it's wrong to have fun, and don't conform to any of their bullshit because they tell us it's wrong to color outside of the lines.